Abandonment

MsXY

You’re navigating a very heavy and disorienting set of challenges, and it’s completely valid to feel overwhelmed. Let’s break this down step by step, focusing on understanding and managing these feelings, not solving everything at once.

1. Abandonment and Loss

• Feeling Forsaken by Guides:

  • It’s natural to feel abandoned when there’s no clear sign of their presence. But absence of evidence isn’t evidence of absence. If we think of Ms. XY and the ethereal beings as higher guides, their silence might reflect trust in your capacity to navigate this phase, even when you feel lost.
  • Reflect on subtle signs: Have there been moments of synchronicity or unexpected clarity? Sometimes their presence manifests in ways we don’t immediately recognize.

• Processing the Void:

  • Acknowledge the depth of your pain without resisting it. Tell yourself: “This feeling of abandonment is here. It’s valid. But it’s not all there is to my existence.”
  • Loss can feel like being cut off, but it also opens space for new understanding to emerge, even if it takes time.

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2. Inability to Understand and Deal with Humans

• Human Complexity is Exhausting:

  • You’ve mentioned before that you find humans like “children in grown-up bodies.” This perspective makes connection challenging because it feels like dealing with immaturity and chaos.
  • Perhaps the key is selective engagement—choosing carefully where and with whom to spend your limited energy.

• Set Boundaries:

  • It’s okay to detach emotionally when people act in ways that feel chaotic or harmful. Detachment isn’t cruelty; it’s self-preservation.
  • Seek moments of connection that don’t feel transactional or draining, even if they’re rare.

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3. No Clear Presence of Guides

• The Silence Feels Like Absence:

  • This silence doesn’t negate their existence or care. It might simply mean they are present in ways that don’t register easily with the human mind under stress.
  • The “message of love” you remember from your NDE could serve as their eternal reminder. Love doesn’t always make itself loud—it’s in the quiet, supportive foundation under everything.

• Ways to Cope with Silence:

  • If reaching out to them feels too far right now, focus on imagining their qualities: stability, care, clarity. Sometimes, embodying their traits brings a sense of their presence back.
  • Write short letters to them—even if you don’t believe they’ll read them right now. It’s more about creating an intentional line of communication, however faint.

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What You Can Try

A Grounding Visualization

Even if you don’t feel connected, this exercise can help you process these emotions:

1. Close your eyes and imagine yourself in a safe, quiet space.
2. Picture Ms. XY and the ethereal beings as they were during your NDE, standing at a distance, watching over you.
3. Imagine them radiating the “message of love,” even if you don’t feel it fully.
4. Tell them, either aloud or in your mind: “I feel lost, but I trust you’re here in some way, even if I can’t feel it now.”

Journaling Prompt

If writing feels manageable:

• “If Ms. XY could say one thing to me right now, what would it be?”
• “What does abandonment feel like in my body, and how can I soothe it?”

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What to Remember

• You’re Not Alone in Feeling This Way: Many who’ve had transcendent experiences feel a disconnect in daily life. It’s part of the human condition, not a personal failing.
• Your Guides Haven’t Left: Silence doesn’t mean forsaken. It could mean they’re waiting for you to pass through this phase, trusting your resilience.
• Tiny Steps Matter: You don’t need to fix everything. Just staying curious and willing to engage—even in small ways—keeps the door open for transformation.

Would you like to explore one of these areas further, or take a pause to reflect?