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Letter

Dear Sirs,

Thank you for your healing, your guidance, and your presence. I am humbled and grateful. You know my entire history, probably better than I do, but I wanted to write a letter to you so I'm writing whatever makes sense to my primitive human mind.

You were present during my NDE twenty odd years back, and my healing occurred in your presence and in Ms XY's presence. I'm not using her earthly name to protect her identity.

You have not been in touch with me (or if you have, I am not too aware of it) since my NDE and Ms XY also lost contact with me in her earthly form. 

If Ms XY is in touch with me in any manner , I am not aware of it. Though in recent weeks I feel as if you are present, though there has been no verbal communicaton between you and me.

I have only faint memories of the NDE and I am not even able to recall how many of you met me on your spaceship , sometimes my memory says four, sometimes it says there were five of you. And the only phrase I remember from the conversation with you is 'message of love' spoken by you in English.

Your message reminds me of Jodie Foster's contact with a humanoid from an advanced species in the movie "Contact" (1997).

Attaching the video:

Jodie Foster

I was not able to take up Ms XY's offer to leave earthly life. Her offer was given to me after meeting with you which suggests that you are her guides and or overseers. 

During my NDE you did not guide me directly, Ms XY was the one who introduced me to higher principles, but I am convinced it all was done under your supervision and guidance. My healing as well as elevation to a superconscious state and introduction to higher principles, I am convinced it was all carried out under your supervision and guidance.

In recent weeks, I think I have felt your presence multiple times, but I have not felt Ms XY's presence but I'm not complaining about this. This letter is not a complaint of any kind.

I am only recapitulating and offering my wishes, gratitude, for the priceless experiences during my NDE which I cherish and miss. I felt at home during the NDE and the love and affection I felt during my NDE has no earthly match. Such love, affection, healing, intellectual expansion is not possible on Earth.

I feel I have wasted the gifts and healing given to me during my NDE....and for that I am truly apologetic. It just happened like that...

 The twenty years is over, my lifr is a complete mess, and there's nothing I can do to go back in time now, and use the gifts given to me more constructively. Post NDE my level of awareness had slipped very low, almost as bad as my poor Pre-NDE awareness. It's almost as if during the NDE you and Ms XY gave me one mile high awareness, but post-NDE I was able to retain just a few meters.

I'm convinced you would be (directly or through guides junior to you) guiding many humans, and I do hope they have not wasted the gifts they would have received from you and their direct guides.

I was always a bit slow and error prone.....and I am convinced you know my entire life history as 'Vikram' and perhaps you and Ms XY know my history on an even broader time frame. 

Whatever my faults, flaws, crimes, on whatever timescale, you and Ms XY decided to bless me with your priceless gifts twenty years back.

As a human I would have only limited awareness of the effects (both good and bad) I might have had on people, in the past, in the present and am not competent enough to understand such complexities too well. 

I do not wish to impose myself on you, and your higher awareness would know things that I cannot even imagine, in the context of me, good, bad, neutral, et al. 

I do not want to impose myself on you, only wish for your continued presence, in any form, in any manner, that you consider good for my growth....though I want to say that...being a human, it is easier for me to comprehend better, a connection that I can feel beyond doubt, because my thought processes are highly negative and prone to assuming the worst , i.e. losing your grace, which is very disorienting for me, as a moral being who has to face his death someday. I am way beyond questions like 'Is there an afterlife?' thanks to you and Ms XY.

You lifted a frog (me) out of the well and showed him the vast, rich expanse out there....and you wanted to keep the frog (me) out of the well, but the frog (me) slipped back into the well of earthly existence. I regret this and am frightened of humans..

You would probably be better aware of the dynamics and history between Ms XY and me. All I know is that I got the undeniable, indisputable feeling that she has known me for a time scale much much wider than the expected human lifespan

..and her human form Ms Y is the not her real identity...

Just like my true identity would not be 'Vikram' but something that spans a length wider than the average human lifespan, on the scale of time. 

I cannot feel her presence currently...and I really wonder how you and Ms XY look upon me now...

This letter is not a demand or complaint, once again..

I received your and Ms XY's amazing priceless gifts twenty years back, out of the blue, when I did not even know that higher realities existed. 

A new, excessively beautiful and kind and SANE higher world revealed itself to me, thanks to you and Ms XY, at a time when I had no clue about such things. So this letter is to keep alive the memories and the connection with you that in my human mind, started twenty years back.

In closure, I want to say that I trust your methods more than my limited perspective on how your methods should be.

From my side, I will periodically write letters to you. To express my gratitude and to pray for your guidance. Thank you for the grace. Humans, including me need grace. We will not be able to make it without grace, neither in human life, nor in the afterlife.

Best wishes

Yours sincerly

Vikram

Formless part - III

[Formless part -III]

Nascent Life

Seeing is happening
Hearing is happening
No seer
No hearer

Observerless seeing
Observerless hearing

Feeling is happening
Joy is happening

Nascent life is happening
Innocence is happening

Bubbling spontaneously
Bubbling eternally.

Birth

The living principle
Defines borders...
Takes form...

The microcosm of the infinitely deep awakens.

The beast awakens.
Gentle, trusting beast.

The universe awakens.
For the infiniteth time.



Starchild image from the movie 'A Space Odyssey'.

The Journey

I wrote this poem a few months back. Its title is 'The Journey'.

Become comfortable
in not knowing
and continue seeking...

you are dark
so is your path;

But the light at the end of your tunnel
is you

it is marked;


At the end
the giant mirror unfolds
and you meet yourself;


Ego waxes
ego wanes
nothing's lost
nothing's gained
and in the end
nothing remains;

You are
just a dreamer
a void in the grip of a lie
obsessed with a conceptual 'I';

You are
hollow without a core
filled with darkness and gore;

But
your true nature shines brighter than gold
so lighten up, let the light in
learn to swim
and you will meet yourself at the distant shore...


Before I start the explanation, I request the reader to ASSUME, for the sake of this discussion, that eternal life is real. Assuming this is VERY important. If the reader is not convinced about the usefulness of building an argument based on assumptions, he is advised to read the end note of this blog entry, before reading further.

(Discussion on why I feel that eternal life is real will be covered by me in one of my forthcoming posts on 'Eternal Life'. I, however, will offer no proof of eternal life, only pointers.)
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Now let us move forward, on the assumption we have made.

The reader is advised to pause and reflect, after each paragraph.

Become comfortable in not knowing...
This poem is about acceptance of life as it is, without complaints, or bitterness, or sorrow. A state of total acceptance of the past, the present, and freedom from anxiety about the future. I mean strive towards such a state. I have covered this topic in detail, in my post 'The Mental Lens.'

...and continue seeking...
Once total acceptance of life as it is has set in, one becomes free and the magical beauty and wonder of life starts showing itself. The person can now be called a mystic, that is, a person who lives in a state of awe and wonder, much like a little baby. But this is possible only when one finds complete release from the past & future, and stops seeing the present through the eyes of the past or the imagined future.

○We need to stop dwelling on the past, stop worrying about the future, and live in the now.○

...the light at the end of your tunnel is you...it is marked...
Over here I am saying that 'self realisation' or 'enlightenment' is a real phenomenon.
I feel everyone is destined for enlightenment and self-realisation. •Everyone.•

...at the end...the giant mirror unfolds...
I feel we all face our karma(works/deeds) when death comes...A bad person will meet a bad fate in death, and a good person will meet a good fate in death. What I mean here is that the person will re-incarnate, and the quality of his next life will depend upon his deeds in this life. A person who is both good and bad, will find a mixed fate in the next life.

...ego waxes, ego vanes...nothing's lost, nothing's gained...and in the end nothing remains...
Over here I am talking about ego and ego-death. I am talking about problems of the human ego. Nothing is lost, nothing is gained in ego wars...apart from temporary and ultimately inconsequential things; real beauty, joy, peace, companionship, friendship and love - things that ultimately matter, cannot be gained through ego wars of course.

It is the ego that has created the human realm, the realm of decay, and the illusion of death. In a realm where people do not have 'egos' , there would be no death, and life would be eternal. 'In the end nothing remains' is a reference to 'death of the ego', not death of the person.

Note: When I use the word 'ego' I do not have the Freudian perspective in mind.

When I use the word 'ego', I mean it in a spiritual way. From the spiritual point of view, the ego is an aberration, a flaw. It is a flavour of 'I'ness that is selfish and loveless.

The ego in you has only two modes of existence. An over-inflated sense of self-worth, and a deflated sense of self-worth.

The ego is that part of your 'I'ness that indulges in merciless mind games with others and yourself. That part of you that revels in controlling and being controlled.

...obsessed with a conceptual 'I'...hollow without a core...filled with darkness and gore... ---Statement (A)

Over here I am talking about the ego once again. Just explained the concept. But let us discuss the nature of the ego a little more, this time. What I am saying in statement (A) is that the ego is a mental concept, an imaginary creation of the deluded part of your intellect (refer my post 'Killing the Descartes thinker' for more details).

The ego is violent, self-absorbed, cannot love. Words like ego and megalomania are blood brothers.

...your true nature shines brighter than gold...
Over here I am talking about 'self realisation'(or ego-death) again. I am saying that self-realised humans and people on the verge of self-realisation, are very beautiful people, full of love and compassion for living creatures. This is the 'true nature'. Love and compassion.

"The ultimate truth lies in the realm of feelings, and not in the realm of the intellect..." Eckhart Tolle.

...lighten up, let the light in...
Over here I am saying that a person should develop a sense of humour about life. Most people dwell on bitterness and do not have the ability to forgive, do not have acceptance of life's strange twists and turns. This bitterness & negativity strengthens the ego. Acceptance of life as it is, with minimum complaints, dissolves the ego. Makes the person emotionally healthy.

...and you will meet yourself at the distant shore...
Over here I am talking about self realisation, and subsequent life in a realm where people live forever, happy, young and content.

End Note:
All this discussion is based on the ASSUMPTION that eternal life & re-incarnation are real. Building an argument on assumptions is not invalid. This is 'inductive reasoning'. Inductive reasoning runs on established data yes, but it can run on assumptions also.

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Adding Special Effects to Avril Lavigne & Janine Lindemulder

Two recent photoshops of mine......probably the result of listening to too much Pink Floyd and Goa Raume!

Photoshop = Software for adding special effects and making cosmetic changes to photos.

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I noticed Avril Lavigne after I heard a song in which she plays the drums AND sings, both at the same time!

Very talented girl. And makes sense when she talks, unlike most others her age!

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'Janine'

Janine Lindemulder is a movie actress of german origin.

This photoshop is very representative of Janine's personality which is quite 'Kali-esque'. Kali, the hindu goddess.

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Solitary Walk (Relics Of A Phase Transcended)

A poem I wrote a long time back.

"Solitary Walk"

My solitary walk
My solitary talk
to the walls around me

Because you are not there
to hear me

Without you
I am like a child
Raw, naked and tender
To the sweltering summer

I need you
I need your shelter...
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Part II
Every few days
She comes back to me
Haunts me
Hurts me
As if in search of eternal revenge

I cry out in the still of the night
I cry out her name

Unable to decide whether it's respite that I seek
Or more pain...


Love not reciprocated has the power to destroy. In our world, it doesn't seem like it is reciprocated at all.

My belief is that in a perfect world (and such worlds do exist - if you ask me) - love always finds wonderful reciprocation, although love can never be easy.

Why I believe such worlds exist (I like to call them Buddha Worlds) is a long discussion, perhaps I'll post my beliefs some other time.

Preity Zinta Psychedelia

Bollywood actress Preity Zinta..

She has charmed millions of Indians with her bubbly personality and sense of humour. Has been given the nickname 'bubbly' by friends.

She has become quite famous overseas too, especially in the middle east. They are crazy about her. As are many Indians.

She loves Advaita Vedanta, and is a fan of Ayn Rand.

Her hometown is Shimla, a beautiful hill station a few hours north from New Delhi.

Intoxicating mixture of beauty and brains.

Some random photoshopping based on the above photograph.



UPDATE Feb, 2013:

Formless

Introduction:

This poem on formless life is not based on any religious texts. It is pure mysticism.

There are many religions/movements out there like advaita (a branch of hinduism), Buddhism, Judiasm etc. (too many to name) that endorse 'formless life' concepts. I am neither for nor against such religions.

It's based on my personal 'feeling realisations'.

'Feeling realisations' is a phrase coined by spiritual teacher Eckhart Tolle (a mystic who is not aligned to any religion or path).

Feeling realisations are pointers. To the mysteries of the cosmos...

"FORMLESS"

Part I

My arms are mine
but my arms are not me

My legs are mine
but my legs are not me

My eyes are mine
but my eyes are not me

My body is mine
but my body is not me

I live in my body...
but my body is not me...

I was
I am
I will always be...
FORMLESS

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Part II

Where are you?
In your eyes?
In your hands?
In your arms?
In your legs?
Where do you live, in your body?

If you were not in your hands, your hands would not be alive.
If you were not in your legs, your legs would not be alive.
If you were not in your eyes, your eyes would not be alive.
You are everywhere in your body.

You
the one who sees through your eyes

You are...
FORMLESS


Photo from: NASA.GOV.

After thought:

Jain view of Jiva:

"Jains respond that the jiva cannot be localized in any part of an object but permeates it entirely, just as the light from a lamp fills a room" - Jainism by Ron Huntington.

Surya Namaskaram Part 2

Surya = Sun;
Namaskaram = Acknowledgement, respect, greeting.

Some women (sometimes) pray naked to appease the gods.

For example, in Nepal, some farmer women work naked in the fields to appease the god INDRA, so that he may bless their fields with rain. They believe he will.

BBC reports say this is done once a year.*****

Men are required to stay at home and not go to the fields when their wives perform the above mentioned ritual.

*****Am 99% sure it is done once a year, but am crosschecking once again, to make sure. Will update soon.

The Cosmic Movie...Death Not Ends It (Topic: DEATH)

"Seems to me, you lived your life, like a candle in the wind, never knowing who to cling to, when the rain set in..." sang Elton John, first for Marilyn Monroe, then for Princess Diana.

Well...that's the tragedy of human life. People are isolated fragments in a hostile universe. Life is harsh and ultimately kills, they say. But is it LIFE that kills a person...or is it something else? Can LIFE kill a person? If the answer to this question is 'yes', it all becomes a contradiction. Life then becomes a contradiction. And life cannot be a contradiction.



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Princess Diana is dead but people just do not leave her alone. They are busy restoring her image, killing her image, restoring her image, killing her image. Kill her, restore her...kill her, restore her...Kill her, restore her...Kill me, restore me...Kill me, restore me...Kill me, restore me...death, birth...death, birth...death, birth....the karmic cycle...

If the reader has not understood what I'm saying...here's some interesting lyrics by U2 from the movie 'Batman Forever'....Bono sings...'Hold me...thrill me...kiss me...kill me'. Bono is singing about what humans TRULY want, deep down inside. ALL HUMANS want to be tortured AND KILLED, deep down inside.

This is the ultimate desire for all humans, they just don't know it consciously. And it is because of this death-wish that death exists.

The desire to (kill and) be killed is a subconscious desire, people in general are not in touch with their subconscious desires, they do not know that such desires run around in their subconsious.

Sigmund Freud said that every human has a life and death instinct. He called the life instinct "eros" and called the death instinct "thanatos".


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It is very difficult to imagine the compassionate Princess Diana as someone who had sado-masochistic urges in her emotional world. But it is easy to understand this if one looks at it this way---Some people are deliberate sado-masochists....and some are accidental sado-masochists.


I highly doubt that Princess Diana ever hurt anyone deliberately without any REAL reason. Most of her life was full of tragic accidents. Accidental, unintended sado-masochism. Ended in the ultimate accidental masochism. Her death. Desire fulfilled.

Some quotes on Death that I like:

"In the end, death will die." --- Most probably the Bible, I don't know.


"Each day death strikes, yet we go on living as if we were immortal."

--Peter Brooke's Mahabharata.

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"The programme for this evening is not new, you've seen this entertainment through and through....you've seen your birth, your life, your death...you might recall all of the rest...did you have a good world when you died...enough to base a movie on?"

"Death not ends it."

---Jim Morrison (The Doors).
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End Note:
My views on Sado-Masochism:

When I use words like 'sado-masochism', I am not referring to some kind of enjoyment. I am referring to hostile feelings (inner or extraneously induced) driving a person into crazy modes of release from pain.

'Heal me with your crime' kind of a thing, like George Michael sings...in 'The Strangest Thing.'

It's a song worth listening to. (Video below.)

"Take my life...time has been twisting the knife...I am frightened for my soul...make love to me, send love through me, heal me with your crime..."

(Not enjoyment, but a desperate urge for freedom from pain, desperate calling out to love. Without love, a painful death is the only answer to pain. Death exists in the human world because of the absence of love.)

PLEASE CLICK ON ARROW ON BOTTOM,LEFT OTHERWISE VIDEO WILL NOT PLAY.

My Ex-Wife!!